I tried to get to you for days
but it was too cold
or too late
or not the right time
I spent those days with friends thinking
you would be there
you would be happy to see me
we would laugh about our sisters
maybe have a meal together
I didn’t think about you a lot
it was a busy time of year
and you were busy too
I thought
When I was close I'd get the call
but it wasn’t from you
it would never be from you
I thought there was something wrong
because
the grief was so ordinary
as ordinary as opening the door
and
sometimes
I
still think you
will
this is sad is it a personal experience?
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading it and for asking. Yes it is, but hopefully other people can take something away from it. My brother died the day after his birthday a few years ago, on Dec 27. No cause they could find, he was athletic and healthy so far as we knew. They think it was a heart arrhythmia. But he never was one for long goodbyes
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